When truth is inconvenient
Happy Tuesday. Happy Illuminations day!
A few thoughts Grab a cacao drink and settle in. This is long.
Yesterday was a hard day for me. I don’t have many of those. But yesterday was one.
I have 100% avoided any of the darkness being slung at me for many months, because Jesus has repeatedly guided me to focus on my work, teaching, launching new programs and speaking out more on the topic of family cults and narc abuse. Topics that awaken the demons within the cults.
I listened.
It worked.
My community grew by the thousands and a much larger number of people are now healing with my narc program than I ever dreamed of. When I saw a number, my first thought was, that’s unrealistic.
It’s not. These past four months have shown me what Jesus does with darkness, even exceeding my own vision.
By a lot.
I had suggested for months that there’s no point in anyone engaging with the slander, the defamation, the libel. The 7 people responsible for the slander (family members of my students) escalated their nefarious activities to death threats. Death threats not just against me and my family, but against another student of mine and her husband, along with my ex husband. These death threats are recorded and are under investigation from the FBI. So my suggestion was, let the law and the lawyers do their thing. And they are. We are. Collectively, those of us who have been harmed.
But yesterday, two of my students chose to take their own action, and respond to the hate, the vitriol, the lies. I was able to read some of what is being said for the first time.
My husband’s advice? “Don’t read it babe. These sick family members are NEVER going to love your work. They’re never going to heal. Not ever. I know you, I know your heart, for 17 years you’ve never given up even on the darkest people, and deep in your heart you wish they would begin to love themselves and heal. That’s where you’re naïve. They’re NOT. They have already made their choice. You will NEVER reach them. So don’t even think about it. And do not even read a word of their filth.”
I sometimes listen to the people who love me unconditionally, but sometimes I don’t.
Yesterday I didn’t.
And it was incredibly sad. Sad is not even the right word. Gut wrenching. Tragic.
Not because I take any of it personal.
I don’t. None of it is about “me”, it’s about what I represent. Their futile attempts to make it about “me” are transparent.
Gut wrenching and tragic, not because it is true. It’s obvious to anyone with critical thinking to see it’s not true.
I have been teaching online for a decade. These people had moles in my private groups. I have written extensively on Facebook, Instagram, my blogs, for ten whole years, and they have been searching for months and months and literally could not find even one single sentence of mine that they could screenshot and try to twist to sound “culty”.
Not one sentence in ten years. Think about that. And we all have seen them twist my students’ words, blasted on instagram with inconvenient words blacked out in paragraphs to remove the context - leaving only the words that supported their lies.
But “culty” doctrines by me? Recruiting subjects? Requiring adherence to anything? Dogma?
Nada.
Zip Zero.
Not a culty thing in sight.
Not when they subscribed to my weekly two hour Illuminations (yup they did that) purchased my programs (yup did that too) and thought they were being clever by “sneaking” into my private group (yup they did that).
And guess what.
NOT. A. CULTY. WORD.
Instead they found that my teachings are the literal opposite of a cult.
EVERYTHING I have taught, spoken about, or written about, for ten years straight is:
Your freedom
Your sovereignty
Your autonomy
Your discernment
And when students ask me “what to do” (you do this because you are trained by authoritarian parents who must approve of your decisions to look for an authority figure, and you project both your mother wound and father wound onto teachers), I send you BACK TO YOURSELF as your own authority. I give you questions to ask yourself.
I flat out tell everyone, it’s better to make a “wrong” decision and learn discernment rather than do what anyone else says and never learn. It’s the exact same way I initiate and empower my own kids…REFUSING to tell them what to do once they become teenagers. The four requirements of parenting are: Nurture, Protect, Empower and Initiate.
YES. I will absolutely tell you that certain locations are dark. That certain supplements are very harmful. That doing plant medicines right now, getting drunk on alcohol and high on weed open you up to entity influence. I have referred thousands of people to Dr. Edith Fiore’s book on this issue “The Unquiet Dead".”
Those recommendations are for you to take in and make your own decisions.
Many of my students heed my warnings. Now. They didn’t always. But now? They make a choice to pay attention to my recommendations because they did not like the life proof they got when they didn’t.
That’s up to them. And up to you.
The teenager who knows fried foods give her acne and she chooses to do it anyway, will eventually either give way to her making a different decision to not eat fried foods, or deal with the acne. It’s no different with any choice you make.
I don’t care what decision any of my students make because I’m not invested in your personal choices. We each live out the results of the choices we make. But many people have witnessed for ten years now, that when I make a statement like “doing reiki will 100% cause harm to come to you” it’s not said lightly.
I don’t care if you do it because my life won’t change at all if you do, or if you don’t. I also don’t charge to clear reiki symbols. I should, but I don’t. And I have hundreds of written testimonials of people whose lives changed dramatically for the better, almost instantly after having the symbols removed.
But I’m not trying to convince anyone. Take it or leave it. Many people who have long term experience with me take it. Why?
LIFE PROOF.
For ten years I have never changed my foundation that NO ONE IS YOUR AUTHORITY IN THIS UNIVERSE. NOT YOUR PARENTS, NOT YOUR SPOUSE, AND CERTAINLY NOT ME.
I have talked about this extensively in Illuminations, I’ve written about it, have posts about it, and base literally all of my work on THAT premise. Students have gotten outright angry at me for NOT telling them what to do, because you are trained by authoritarian parents that you can’t make your own decisions.
My work is all out there and boy did these defamers and criminals look hard. Even paying me in the process, hoping and praying they’d find something they could twist into culty looking material.
When The Truth Is Inconvenient,
The Abuser Weaves a Web
But, they couldn’t find a thing. So what did they do?
Make up lies, create fake accounts, and tell tall tales. VERY tall. With zero proof.
In addition to their tall abusive tales, they caused horrific collateral damage.
You want to know dark? Facts? Truth? These people are so depraved, so sadistic, that they actually:
Made phone calls to my student’s husband, Drew Brady’s financial clients, telling lies that Drew was stealing their money and using it “to buy mansions” in Florida for the purpose of “Luring women into a Florida cult.”
Thankfully there’s a thing called facts. And proof. And in the courts, facts and proof matter.
But in the world of online gossip and small town gossip? There are people with literally nothing better to do than cling to other peoples stories and lives, because they have nothing good going on in theirs. We all know that successful, wealthy, happy people in good relationships have no time to engage in gossip - celebrity or otherwise.
But Drew Brady, a man who has worked so hard to build a respectable financial advising company. What did Drew do?
Like the rest of us?
Raise his family and work hard. That’s what Drew did. That’s what his wife Amanda did.
But satan doesn’t care. Satan looks for opportunities to attack anyone he can. And when Drew moved out of Canada with his wife, my student, and their beautiful family, they bought a beautiful home, and a few friends in Canada decided to join them.
That was enough for these vile dishonest dishonorable people who tried to destroy Drew’s hard earned clientele.
Drew’s business was harmed DRAMATICALLY by the actions of these people. Yes, he will recover all of his losses, and THEN SOME.
But that doesn’t take away the pain and stress he and his wife and their children have had to endure. These 7 people and their provable, quantifiable, vindictive, cruel and sadistic actions, have made their bed.
And yes. They WILL have to lie in it. (no pun intended)
If you’re a student of mine you’re aware that I teach you how to empower and initiate yourself since your parents did not.
My role as a teacher is to model what unconditional love SHOULD HAVE LOOKED LIKE. Unconditional love. No judgment. I’m here. You do something I’ve said is nuts? Like, I’ve continually said never do anything illegal in a custody battle, and you do?
And you have bad repercussions?
I still love you.
Yes, you have serious consequences. But I don’t judge you. I understand. You’re navigating some tough situations, often with abusive family members.
I don’t care if you don’t heed my advice. I feel sadness that you’ve made your journey harder. But it doesn’t diminish you in any way in my eyes. I see your heart, your soul.
Of all the comments (98% which came from your family members) one was from a former mole in my Facebook group. She made a claim that I “kick people out for not agreeing with me.”
First of all. Newsflash. In the millions of Facebook groups, there are millions of rules. The moderator sets the rules. If you don’t like the rules get out of the group. No one owes anyone a group.
But second of all, in the three years of my group, I have removed only a handful of people. Each of them for doing the same thing:
Creating chaos
Creating Drama
Attacking other students
And in one very severe case, a woman who was going behind the scenes to destroy women, do weird “rituals” on pregnant women, prying into their lives to get personal details, trying to create division, reading poetry while crying on the phone to over 50 ladies in the group, and when she was finally removed, 140 members wrote 1000 comments about the specific facts of the actions she had taken that were very sick and harmful.
1000 comments on what could be described as nothing less than sociopathic behavior, including traveling to visit other members of the group for an overnight stay, and taking multiple kitchen appliances with her, including an air fryer, along with a large 30 x 40 acrylic painting that she carried room to room.
1000 comments. Let that sink in. So yes. I removed her. Ya got me! Lol
I also removed a student who constantly created chaos in my health group. Practicing a form of alternative medicine that was total quackery. And I told her that. She asked. I didn’t volunteer my opinion. She asked what I thought of it. I told her “it’s harmful and it’s quackery and there is no science to support it.”
She was begging for my approval because of her wounds. She didn’t get it, because no one needs my approval. If you ask my thoughts I will tell you without candy coating. I don’t care if you agree or not. I’m not invested in your personal choices.
My unwillingness to take on the role of her authoritarian mother and tell her what to do was triggering to her. She couldn’t handle that.
She went on a tirade (tirade meaning more than 16 comments on one post alone, complaining about everything.) And yes. I screenshot and save everything.
I’m a lawyer. Remember?
And I see the writing on the wall when people begin spinning out into their self-destructive ways. This isn’t my first rodeo and it’s certainly not the first time someone was angry with me because I didn’t do what they wanted or expected me to do.
She believed I should be micromanaging ever aspect of her life, including telling her what exact protein powder to buy.
Many students started privately messaging me to say she was disruptive and they were becoming disturbed by her constant chaos. I removed her from the group, a group in which NO ONE IS ENTITLED TO and I clearly state that.
She begged and pleaded to stay in the group. I told her my decision was final.
When I get to a point of removing someone, A LOT of damage has already been done.
I go to great lengths to try and salvage a deteriorating member.
I’m not interested in a back and forth drama. I don’t do drama. That triggered her even more.
She moved to Mexico and was aggressively attacked by rabid dogs. Not one, many. And swarms of bugs. And other horrific situations. (yes I have screenshots of these conversations too from DM’s she sent me)
She never made the connection that her outer chaos was a reflection of her inner chaos.
I have all of her DM’s in which she tried to blackmail me and said she would “write stories about me.” And she has. When she joined forces with these defaming family members.
Ok cool. Lawyers and law enforcement can handle that too.
I have work to do.
My role in my Facebook groups is to preserve the peace and safety for the WHOLE. I can’t cater to the handful of individuals that feel entitled, and believe they deserve special treatment.
I master of my time and energy. And when entitled people realize they have zero ability to influence how I act, they become enraged.
Their demons, full tilt.
I have stated repeatedly NO ONE IS SPECIAL ON THIS EARTH. EITHER THAT, OR WE ARE ALL SPECIAL, BUT NO ONE IS “BETTER THAN” ANYONE ELSE.
Some people have a hard time with that. Especially the people who think they’re special or want to be special.
Entitlement is a disease. One which is very hard to heal from.
Just last week on my IG stories I shared a convo with a student who said “but doesn’t healing make us better than the people who choose dark?”
I said, nope. It just means we choose light, and get to have the consequences for choosing light. They get to have the consequences for choosing darkness.
Life is all about life proof. Is what you’re doing working for YOU? Keep on keeping on. If not? Do something else.
So no.
Yesterday wasn’t hard because anything these 7 people say is based in any truth. (yes it’s 7 core people, 4 in Canada and 3 in Illinois, there are more who will be named as accessories to these crimes but the IP addresses and emails connected to the prime evildoers are the 7, I think they really didn’t understand that all emails and accounts are traceable by experts, even fake emails, although several of them used their actual email).
Yesterday was hard for me because I will NEVER accept that satan has such a reign of terror here. I know he does. But I won’t ever stop sharing unconditional love. Teaching love. Teaching empowerment.
Most importantly, teaching you how to have your own very direct personal connection with Jesus.
And satan won’t ever stop coming after light. He will take every last weak wounded soul he can get his hands on. Look at the world. Look at the wars, the abuses, the animal abuse, the human trafficking, the slavery, domestic abuse, child abuse. Gossipers. People trying to destroy businesses of others. We are not living in paradise.
You don’t need me to tell you that satan is tireless.
But guess what. So am I.
And I believe with all my heart and soul that every one of you who wakes up, loves yourself, and recognizes that YOU WERE NEVER UNWORTHY, that you are inherently GOOD, automatically loveable, you will EMBODY more love.
You will become kinder. To yourself and others.
You will stop yelling at your children.
You will stop settling for relationships with abusers.
You will never again allow yourself to sit at a holiday dinner table with “family” members who belittle, berate, and judge you.
You will stop saying hateful things to yourself when you look in the mirror.
You will stop feeding the lies of satan within you, you will instead feed the loving soil that Jesus provides you.
YOU will then be tireless in bringing light to this earth.
I hope that my process can help you uncover your own, when darkness comes at you.
BECAUSE IT WILL.
But remember this: darkness either comes AT you because you are a lightworker…. Or you become a PAWN of darkness. There’s no option C.
Evil is never going to lay down and watch you BE LIGHT without trying to stop you. Not here.
My own process of a hard day like yesterday looks like this:
1. I first feel and think? Fuck this. It’s not worth it. I certainly don’t need to do this for money, I’ve made millions in my life and have many avenues of income that don’t involve me dealing with psychotic people. I first became a millionaire in my 20’s, this work isn’t it.
I QUICKLY recognize that as the voice of satan. Only satan speaks discouraging words. Only the enemy of Jesus creates chaos, tries to bring you down, slings awful lies, makes you want to quit. Jesus never does that. NEVER. So darkness is easy to see.
The instant I recognize those “this isn’t worth it” thoughts as satan himself, (takes me about an hour now, used to take up to a day) I literally say:
FUCK THAT. I see who you are. You cannot hide from the light, and it’s not going to work.
It has NEVER worked.
You’ve never got me to quit ANYTHING that Jesus called me to do.
And it’s not working now either
I then remember that Jesus spent 40 days in the desert asking God “why have you forsaken me?”
Humanity is vulnerable to satan’s lies. Every human. Jesus included.
As soon as I remember that, I feel relief. I then know I only need to allow myself to feel sad. Which I did. For the rest of the day.
Sad because my heart breaks for you. I can’t even imagine the devastation it must feel like to have your own family members spew so much hatred. Especially your own parents. Lying, invalidating your life experiences, gaslighting you, all on a public forum.
They have all been anonymous keyboard warriors for satan, so that they could hide from YOU. Hide from you speaking out BY NAME the pain, suffering, damage, trauma and abuse you are trying to heal from.
They THOUGHT they could keep the family dirty laundry a secret.
They were wrong.
And I’m so happy for you. For your strength. Your voices. Your empowerment. Your sovereignty.
So I was sad for a while. I allowed myself to process the evil being done, accept that I can’t help those people, and remember what I am doing here.
But then happy to see you all rise into your own life paths.
This morning when I woke up, Jesus showed me in detail more about WHY he is guiding me through this particular situation.
What he wants me to do. ANOTHER way that He is guiding me to share these teachings. And it’s very exciting. If you’re in B school you already know.
Everyone will know soon.
If Jesus was the only path that everyone followed, we still wouldn’t have a perfect world.
We are human, which by definition, makes us not perfect. Even Jesus himself never claimed to be a savior or perfect. He knew He was neither. He was a man. A carpenter. And above all else, a Teacher. But, in a world where everyone followed only Jesus, one thing for sure would happen - people would begin to love themselves more.
People would stop holding on to their own shame and guilt for the darkness they’ve committed. They would recognize that having done bad things doesn’t mean you are an unredeemable soul.
It does mean you’re accountable, you have to heal, you have to do better tomorrow.
What does that look like in families? A huge percentage of which are toxic and are legitimately family cults, with a hierarchy, a ruler, a controller?
In a world where everyone follows Jesus, it looks like the parents accept and own their shadow.
It looks like the parents stop having a pity party for themselves about the “pain” their children are inflicting on them.
NO.
ABSOLUTELY NOT.
Once you make a decision to become a parent, you are 100% responsible for the quality of that relationship FOR THE ENTIRETY OF YOUR LIFE.
Yes. Even when you are 90 and your kids are 60.
When I was young my dad would always say “I love you sweetheart” and I would say “I love you too dad” and he would say “I love you more” and I would say “noooooo no way.” And it ended there.
But when I was in my 20’s he would say to me “when you have children honey, you will FINALLY understand what it is to love another human truly unconditionally. Motherhood will propel you into your path.”
That made no sense to me at the time.
I told him “that makes no sense. I can’t imagine loving at any deeper of a level than how I love you as my parent. My guardian. My teacher. My protector.”
He would just say “you will see.”
He also told me “kids don’t love unconditionally when they’re born. They’re needy. They’re narcissistic. They have to be. They are COMPLETELY co-dependent. That’s their journey. A parents journey is to LOVE LOVE AND LOVE some more. No conditions.
If your child says they hate you? They’re angry? They fail at school? They quit a sport? LOVE.
They dress in a way you dislike? LOVE
They choose a partner you dislike? LOVE.
He told me “a parent has ONE prime directive, to UNCONDITIONALLY LOVE their children. Children do NOT have that directive. They need to learn that from experiencing unconditional love from their parents.”
When I gave birth to my daughter, at the height of my powerful career on Wall Street having already earned millions in my 20’s, I looked into her eyes, and the love I felt was like nothing I had ever imagined.
The love for my daughter RIPPED me apart into shreds of who I was. It was a force so powerful nothing could compare.
I knew that for me, in that moment, my entire focus was unconditional love. And it’s what made me walk away from such a fun, lucrative, prestigious career, my education, my training, my radical success.
NONE. OF. IT. MATTERED.
Only love did. And I knew that working 70-80 hour weeks and lots of international travel would not align with how I wanted to be a mom.
It shook me.
During my entire pregnancy I thought like my other female colleagues (the handful that there were in that environment) “I will get a nanny, like they have, and continue my career.”
WRONG AGAIN.
I lost count at how many times I’ve been wrong about my personal path. Jesus continually laughs at my plans, and continues to push me to do what HE wants me to do.
You see, I surrendered my life to him at age 2.
Age 2 when I was crying in my bedroom, and my parents came in to ask me what was wrong. I told my dad “I don’t know what Jesus wants me to do with my life.”
My dad reassured me that I had time. But I wasn’t buying it. I felt very worried that I wasn’t “going to know.”
My mom ended up enrolling in a local college shortly after that, to study courses in gifted children. She didn’t know how to help guide me, so she thought that was the way.
My dad? He knew.
He just kept telling me in the years and decades that followed “just ask. Every day ask. Jesus how can I serve? Jesus use my life for your purposes.”
When you DO that, I mean really genuinely between you and God DO that, your plans don’t get to be your own.
You can have them. I always do. I like to be proactive. But, Jesus never hesitates to course correct me.
When you, or I, or anyone, is GENUINELY a servant of Jesus, not the church kind, the real “I give my life to you” kind, you WILL be met with darkness.
You cannot avoid it.
Satan doesn’t lay down and play dead. He is constantly working. Hard. To try and take you down. To make you doubt yourself.
Satan is constantly working through unhealed people. Weak people. Vulnerable people who do not realize they are his prey.
People who, when their child tells them “you harmed me. You hit me. You abandoned me. You psychologically damaged me… I’m trying to heal”, instead of meeting that with LOVE, they meet it with satans tools:
Anger
Attacking
Slander
Defamation
Rage
Character assassination
Pettiness
Towards their own children, their children’s friends, and anyone who is teaching their children that they DESERVE unconditional love and that they DO NOT deserve abuse, gaslighting, attacks, disrespect of boundaries.
Satan works tirelessly through these people. The majority of them genuinely have no idea what’s happening. Their wounds block their own light.
They live with so much shame and guilt for hitting you, beating you, berating you, yelling at you, abusing you, emotionally or physically abandoning you.
For many, the shame and guilt is buried. Deep.
For many, they’ve justified their abuse to “keep you in line” or because “God said so” and other satanic lies.
In a world where everyone followed only Jesus, these parents and sisters and brothers would be able to say “I’m sorry. Please forgive me. What can I do to help you? How can I support your journey? I’m not making any excuses. What I did was wrong. Can I do anything to repair what I broke? I honor you and your choices, even if I disagree with them. If you’re happy, I’m genuinely happy for you.”
But, we don’t live in a world where everyone follows only Jesus. And that’s how situations that have recently taken place. Take place.
I leave you with one final and most important thought:
WE as a collective community are over 130,000 people doing this work between all of my programs, pages and followers. Each of you will grow your own communities in your own way, sharing your gifts and light like only you can do.
These 7 people? And the few trolls in the wasteland known as Reddit, with nothing but time on their hands? Are accomplishing nothing at the end of the day. Jesus is and has been using their darkness for GOLD and so much abundance, strength and empowerment has already unfolded.
There’s NO COINCIDENCE that this all peaked precisely on Lion’s Gate to throw you out of the frying pan into the fire.
You now have your voice.
Strengthened. To speak out. Without fear. To embody Light. Without worry.
You ARE ready.
Liana