SHAME IN THE SHADOWS: Satan’S Secret Weapon
Every single person who has ever consumed animals, has obviously consumed death itself. We have also consumed the energy and the hormones of fear, terror, and pain. As a result, any one of us who believes we have even a shred of decency, a shred of compassion, or who believes we are in any way “a good person”, is also carrying a truckload of shame for our abuses. Whether we are aware of this or not.
It’s impossible not to.
Shame hides in the shadows, and as long as it remains there, darkness holds us in its grip.
When we hold a value, like “kindness” - in other words, we believe it is important to be a kind person and we place value on that, and we also see ourselves as “kind" - our shame is activated when we come face to face with actions we have taken that are NOT kind.
But unless we ACTIVELY self-examine our behaviors and actions, we can go years without coming face to face with our unkind actions. The longer we go without self-examination, the more unhappy our lives become. The more we find chaos in our lives. The more we feel like something is “off.”
If you haven’t noticed, most people are not doing a lot of self-examination. Even those who proclaim to be the most spiritual, enlightened and loving people turn into a reactive angry mob when confronted with truths like: your gluttony is the cause of extreme pain, death and sadness, or Jesus did not eat animals, or eating animals is a central tenet in satan’s death cult.
There is no way to respond reasonably to those statements, because those statements are truths. And, the more distanced a person is from their shame, the harder they attack the truths they have no response for. Clearly there is no legitimate response to the fact that no animal wants to die, and that the decision to consume death causes pain, death and sadness. That is an immutable truth. It is literally impossible to see yourself as a “kind person” if you are forced to admit that you are doing things that cause extreme harm to innocents. The only way to “pretend reconcile” your actions with your values is to lash out with non-responsive statements, generalizations or programmed religious beliefs that have no basis in truth.
Or, you can lash out by attacking the messenger - otherwise known as ad hominem attacks.
When you introduce people to the idea that eating animals is completely against the teachings of Jesus, and that flesh eating is a ritual central to satan’s death cult, you are likely to be met with unfounded religious beliefs and mind-controlled rhetoric. Hundreds of millions of Christians worldwide justify their participation in death cult because they are using the satanic bible as their support (the Old Testament). Yet, there is proof in Jesus’ own words that YHWH - the god of the old testament, is satan, the evil being that Jesus came to “save us” from (see the gospels of both Matthew and John about who Jesus says YHWH is as opposed to who He says His Father is).
It is illogical to use satan’s edicts in the Old Testament as “proof” that Jesus wants us to abuse, harm and cause suffering to innocents. Jesus clearly does not, as evidenced in the New Testament and the Essene Gospel of Peace. But even if you didn’t have access to the study of biblical history, you could intelligently deduce that a man whose entire existence was to teach LOVE and who gave up his very life in order to demonstrate love, would not simultaneously teach that we should cause harm, abuse, pain and suffering to beings simply because we can and we lust after it.
If shame was easy to confront, everyone who has light in their soul would be vegan.
None of us like shame. It is probably one of the most uncomfortable feelings any human has to deal with. Unconscious parents shame their children with “you should be ashamed of yourself” for everything from a poor test grade to a kiss with a boy to expressing anger. When you are shamed as a child you begin to place all of your “bad behaviors” in the shadow, where you won’t have to face them. It’s such a heavy feeling, knowing you’ve done something that can never give you the approval you need from your parents.
As adults, that shame might take on a different form and present as shame from knowing you’re doing something Jesus would never do, when you have identified your whole life as a “christian.”
There are so many layers to this. Clearly, most christians have no idea they are worshiping satan, nor that they are following satan’s rules, not Jesus’. Most people are not CONSCIOUSLY choosing evil. But what they ARE doing is avoiding the painful work of self-reflection because the shame lurks in exactly the place they need to go to in order to be honest with themselves. The problem with shame is that it never stops anyone from doing “bad things” it only hides the bad things from your every day consciousness.
If it was easy to face shame, the subject of killing animals for our appetites wouldn’t require a conversation, an argument, a dialogue or even a question. Nor would the killing of a baby whose life force propels her towards EXISTENCE be acceptable.
Once you SEE that LIVING beings don’t want to die, and that killing something that doesn’t want to die is evil, you can no longer unsee it, and therefore, your own moral imperative compels you to stop doing it.
ADMITTING that you are participating in evil, that you ARE doing evil in this world, and the resultant shame, is just too much to bear for people who haven’t done any healing. When mother wound and father wound are still so prevalent in your life, you just can’t bear to face the rejection and anticipated disapproval from the authority figures you need validation from (God, mom, dad, Jesus).
It is MUCH more palatable to accept satan’s lies.
Therein lies the trap.
It is easy to accept “yeah, Jesus ate fish” without STUDYING the biblical history and archaeology and learning that this story of the fish is ALLEGORY not factual. It is much easier to accept that “God said we can eat animals in the bible” without STUDYING the actual old and new testament outside of the interpretation of religious dogma. A study of the bible outside of religious dogma reveals that what is condoned in the old testament - sexual mutilation of boys, subjugation of women, abuse and harm of animals, and condoning the egoic desire to have dominion over all beings who are physically less powerful - is satan, not God.
Satan WANTS YOU to believe you are special, important, powerful, and that you can have dominion over the animals because that is how he will ALWAYS control you. That is how he gets you to continue causing harm, abuse, death, and slavery - by convincing you that it is your RIGHT.
And as long as he has convinced you to choose ANY ASPECT of death culture, he owns your soul.
Notice common language in all satanic rituals “you have a RIGHT to kill your unborn baby that God gave to you” “you have a RIGHT to rip baby calves from their mothers and forcibly impregnant females so that you can satisfy your lust for cheese.” The brainwashed belief that you have “rights” that are more worthy than the basic right that God gave to all sentient beings - which is to LIVE - is the most powerful foundation that supports satan’s agenda.
His goal is to rip you AWAY from love. AWAY from kindness. AWAY from compassion. And when you have been convinced you have a RIGHT - you are more likely to fight your own heart in order to uphold that false RIGHT.
To ask yourself the question of “do I actually HAVE this right” or “do I WANT to defend this right” or “would a loving God REALLY bestow superiority onto me, to the detriment of (animals, other races, other religions, women, animals) - is not an easy inquiry because the answers lead you to the shadows…to shame.
I know for myself, it was not an easy task to overcome the guilt and shame I felt once I “SAW” the harm I was causing. I was able to do so very quickly only because I wasn’t shamed as a child. I didn’t have a radical aversion to the feeling of shame. When I realized that for 20 years of my life I had been a participant in satan’s rituals, I was horrified, and faced it HEAD ON. I stopped immediately. I wondered why my family hadn’t been vegan, and why I wasn’t raised vegan.
It wasn’t until years later that I was shown - the reason was because I needed to have PERSONAL EXPERIENCE with certain issues and dilemmas that face all humans so that I could speak from personal experience. It was instrumental in leading me to where I am today, where I can teach in a way that shares how I processed my own shame and guilt.
The FULLY HUMAN experience was a necessity for my path.
Before moving on, I want to make it clear that being vegan does not automatically make someone a good person. Many vegans advocate for abortion, and if you ever watched former abortionist Dr. Anthony Levatino, and truly understand how the excruciating deaths take place in the womb, you would understand what I mean. Dr. Levatino killed over 1000 babies, legally, before his awakening. He says the majority of people who refuse to listen to his facts have a mindset of “I already made up my mind, don’t confuse me with facts” You can watch a video of him speaking about this here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wrSYXsK-eoU
The journey of examining of our true values versus our behavior is not limited to the subject of animal commodification and speciesism. It includes racism, sexism, and virtually all other areas of our lives. We don’t live in a vacuum, and therefore our quest for BEING who we like to think we are requires continuous willingness to self-examine.
Reconciling Our Own Values With Our Behavior Is the Only Way to Live an Aligned Life
When we live in a way that is incongruent with what we value DEEP WITHIN, we are not aligned. Living a life that is not aligned is always a disturbed life. Sure, you will hear from many people who have fought for or had abortions (and haven’t awakened yet) and people who eat animals tell you that they are "“just fine” and not “disturbed.”
But that’s a lie. It can’t be true.
They may have actually convinced themselves that it is true, but in the laws of the universe, incongruity cannot equate to peace and happiness. Why? Misalignment between values and actions means you exist in a state of internal conflict.
Energy is simple: If you VALUE kindness deep within, and your actions cause harm to innocents (defenseless babies and animals), you are actually NOT kind. This means that you are acting in ways which go against YOUR OWN values - not someone else’s opinions.
Most people I know WANT to be kind. Most people I know VALUE kindness. Most people I know believe they ARE kind. And most people I know who harm animals and children through their actions go to GREAT LENGTHS to justify the cruelty so that they can keep on believing they are “good people” and “kind,”
But here’s the thing, to truly become a KIND person, you can’t just be kind when it’s convenient. You also can’t just be kind when society condones your cruelty, which is the case with eating animals. Current societal norms say that you can still be a good person and eat innocent beings that were once living and didn’t want to die. That’s apparent when people say “just let people make their own choices, don’t force your beliefs on others.”
But I bet you can’t find a single person who would say “hey, just let people own slaves..you may care about black people but I don’t. Don’t force your beliefs on others.” Sadly, it wasn’t too long ago in our history that people DID say that, because black people were not SEEN as people deserving of freedom and LIFE. They were seen as PROPERTY. In that part of our history, the enslavement of black people didn’t mean you were a bad person. You could easily have been living as a slaveowner and considered a “good” man or woman. It is only through the lens of time and human consciousness evolution that people realized “oh wow, yea, that was horrific, slave owners were not good people.”
Of course there were the abolitionists, the people who KNEW slavery was evil and who fought hard to abolish it. They believed that ALL people had rights to happiness and freedom. They were progressive, and most of society thought they were crazy because LAWS EXISTED that identified black people as less valuable. They were a commodity, and most people saw NOTHING wrong with that.
This is exactly what we have today with animals (and unborn babies). They are viewed not as independent beings deserving of consideration. Deserving of freedom and happiness. Society accepts the abuse of these innocents for any reason, and laws exist to CONFINE THEM into the category as “less than.”
Their suffering doesn’t matter in today’s cultural programming.
More evidence of the PSYCHOSIS in society is that there are different laws for different animals. Many places have cruelty laws in effect to protect dogs and cats, but those same jurisdictions have laws that prevent people from taking video footage of extreme cruelty to dairy cows and pigs.
No one with a logical mind who is actually living an aligned life can see these things as acceptable.
If you believe in FREEDOM AND HAPPINESS for yourself, and you have identified a category of being who YOU DO NOT BELIEVE deserves the same, you have identified yourself as a dominator-controller: someone who arbitrarily thinks that your own self-serving wants supersede the basic rights wants and needs of another group. In order to do that, you have to place yourself above this other “group” and convince yourself (or allow society to convince you) that you are more special. That you deserve more. That you are entitled.
This is a TRUTH whether the group you seek to use for your own purposes are children (child abuse), abortion (baby murder), animals (eating them because your bloodlust is unchecked) black people (because, well, slavery), ownership of women (women were once property and in many places still are) or any others.
Why Being a Kind Person Isn’t The Same As Doing Something Kind
To illustrate the difference, think of a person who has been really unkind to you. Maybe even awful. Have that person in mind now? Are you aware of anything they have done that is kind? I bet your answer is yes. I have a student whose father was an angry abuser growing up, yet he repeatedly volunteered in the community and raised money for charities through his business. I am sure that many of the people who were the recipients of his “charity” thought he was a kind man. But his daughter? She didn’t see that because she was the victim of his abuse. As his victim, she sees him as the cruel, heartless, narcissistic monster that he was TO HER.
To the mother cow who experienced repeated raping to impregnant her, and the ripping away of the children she is meant to feed and love, you are a monster made of pure evil…the cause of her severe trauma, fear and pain every time you eat an ice cream cone. To you? You believe you are just eating something that everyone eats. I mean, society has said ice cream is ok and dairy cows are happy, right? That’s easier to swallow than the facts.
But the cow would certainly not describe you as a kind person, even if you run a dog shelter and rescue abandoned and abused dogs.
Here’s the thing: Kindness isn’t a bank account. Being kind to dogs doesn’t make up for your cruelty to cows. It’s not a deposit into your kindness account. Kindness to a 6 month old infant you are raising doesn’t lessen the devastation to the infant who had her legs and arms ripped off of her body by an abortionist because it “wasn’t the right time.”
Most people want to generalize their goodness by saying “I’m a good person.” But that’s not real. You have to look at all of your behaviors and traits and choices and decisions and actions and integrity in order to form a more accurate picture of your true character.
In my example, the father is DEFINITELY NOT a “good man” - and I think most people would agree. Why? Because abuse and cruelty to defenseless children is GENERALLY ACCEPTED AS BAD. I can’t think of anyone reading this who would say “nah he is a good man, just don’t judge him by his choice to abuse, he does so many other good things".
But flip the script and fill in cow or pig instead of daughter. Almost instantly, the reactive defenses go up and people (who eat animals say) that is DIFFERENT, a child is not a cow or a pig. True, a child is not a cow or a pig. But if kindness is a value, and the consumption of animals REQUIRES cruelty, fear, terror and abuse of a defenseless animal, no one with any integrity can make a real argument that it is ACTUALLY kind.
People make all kinds of excuses when they are in the reactive defense mode:
Animals are meant for us to have dominion over and we can do what we want to them (colonizer mindset)
We can’t thrive without eating animals (lack of nutrition knowledge)
Our ancestors ate animals (yes, they also practiced ritual sacrifice and ownership of women and black people)
God said eat animals (biblical fallacy, that was satan YHWH in the old testament, NOT Jesus’ father. Jesus was a vegan and there is extensive information on this in the Essene Gospels. Not to mention Jesus taught protection and compassion for animals, not abuse and death and harm).
In the search for a spiritually aligned life, we can’t allow society’s definitions of good and bad to dictate our internal moral compass. We have to find our own, based on the values we hold.
The belief that any human holds, that GOD or JESUS - who ARE Love - would EVER be ok with the egoic superiority complex required for a person to use animals, has no merit. The denial and self-betrayal it takes to shut down compassion long enough to stuff a cheeseburger in one’s mouth is merely a dark delusion. There are layers to the level at which each person lives inside of their own dark delusion - a delusion held in place by un-excavated shame.
1. At the highest frequency are people who may have grown up eating animals (like I did) but who INSTANTLY stop the minute we are shown the connection. We don’t run from the TRUTH We don’t hide from our shadow We acknowledge our horrendous acts, we seek to atone We INSTANTLY change our behavior.
2. At the next level are people who feel the twinge of “it’s not right” - they acknowledge it, and seek to learn more. They willingly watch movies like earthlings and dominion. They follow animal rights accounts. They are willing to SEE. They may slowly start to make changes, like “I no longer eat cows and pigs” while still being ok with chicken or fish. This is still a highly evolved being, who has a few layers of density due to unhealed trauma.
3. Next, there are people who are somewhat willing to listen to some truths, maybe nutritionally - that consuming animals is unhealthy to the body - but they don’t want to watch videos of cow babies being torn from their mothers and driven away as mothers run as far as they are able to after the trucks … in desperation to feed their newborn babies… they claim it’s “too painful” - yet… they still eat butter. And ice cream. This is the midpoint of consciousness… where a person deliberately IGNORES truth so that they can continue practicing their addiction to flesh or breastmilk. Their consciousness is run by inner children, and they have some, albeit little, mastery of their minds… they are ruled more by impulse and reactivity… rather than self awareness.
4. At the next level are people who may be open to hearing about the harsh realities of using animals as commodities, but have zero control over their behavior. They are mostly ruled by unconscious programming. But since they allow some of the truth into their awareness, they start looking for ways to JUSTIFY death culture. These are the people who say they “only eat locally farmed humane meat” or “free range chickens” Completely unwilling to accept that: No one wants to be killed for food, no one wants to be raped so humans can have ice cream, and therefore it can NEVER be “humane.” Never. But they lull themselves into a false sense of “I’m a good person” because I’m willing to pay more money for “ethical murder” when - in reality there is no such thing.
5. At the next level are a very low level of consciousness, people who have no control of what they consume, who are completely UNABLE (not unwilling) to HEAR TRUTH. Their energy bodies are literally like IMPENETRABLE WALLS.. so riddled with shame are these people, that they cannot HEAR truth. They are PURE out of control “reactors.” These are the “but bacon” “I’m going to go eat two steaks now” - among the lowest forms of consciousness. These are people I don’t ever engage with because there is ZERO point… they will not be waking up. This group I have a lot of pity for, because they are this way due to extreme trauma. They’re TRAPPED in a low timeline, but without awareness that they exist at a low consciousness level.
6. At the next level down are the people who aren’t really ignoring their own compassion, because they don’t really have any. They are much further down in their consciousness evolution. They see the animals-as-sentient-loving-beings conversation as pointless. These are: the colonizers, the patriarchy upholders, who live inside of the distorted masculine energy paradigm… These are the people who have NO COMPREHENSION of what it means to have spiritual awareness, or emotional intelligence… These are the people who spout: “Ancestors ate animals” “Animals are here for our use” “We evolved eating dead things” These are in other generations: the warring chiefs, the slave owners, the gas chamber operators, the drug lords… they operate on a frequency of CONTROL FORCE DOMINATE “because we can” and they see nothing wrong with it. They will NEVER answer the question of cognitive dissonance between having a dog as a person but eating a cow. Why? They are LITERALLY INCAPABLE of self-introspection at that level. They are PURE EGO. A very low consciousness.
7. Right below these people are the lowest form of human consciousness. The people who KNOW it is evil. Who KNOW it is satanic. Who KNOW death culture keeps people corded to satan. They are those at the HIGHEST LEVELS who push the animal farm industry. Who push the “carnivore” paradigm. Who WORK HARD to convince people to eat organs of dead animals, who PUSH HARD to brainwash people that BLOODLUST is REQUIRED to thrive as a human an optimal levels. They CLEARLY ignore the science and appeal SOLELY to the FREQUENCY of ADDICTION.
If you’re wondering why there is ALSO a growing narrative pushing fake toxic lab meats,.. and consumption of bugs… it is because Satan is controlling TWO SIDES of the same dualistic coin.
Only highly evolved consciousness can see BEYOND the coin to see that both sides of the coin are Satan. By choosing a side, you are FEEDING THE DEMONS with polarity energy, while believing your “choice” is the “right” one. The narrative is portrayed as “choose REAL over FAKE, fake is bad.” That trap works on so many people which is why you see many people in the dark truther movement pushing the carnivore death cult. People feel a kinship or alignment with other truthers and think “I’m aligned with people who are exposing the vaccine scam and the p€dos in government so I must need to eat dead things too, fake things are a cabal conspiracy” (hint, they are… but so is the death cult)
On the other end - it traps people who say “it’s better than harming animals” which often also goes hand in hand with advocating for baby death in the womb because it is “better than” unwanted children. They see only two sides: horrific infant sacrifice rituals or a bunch of “unwanted kids”
They don’t see that neither has to be the reality if people evolve their consciousness.
Evolving consciousness requires a willingness to look at your shadow and face the shame. It requires a willingness to remove the labels you currently have about yourself as being a “good” person, and instead, looking at each action or behavior you embody, and measuring that up against what you TRULY believe and value within your heart. Liana