Kaimani Aliah @kaimanialiah
Liana Shanti reacquainted me to my inherent worthiness and it gave me my life and soul back. I used to starve myself because I didn't feel I was worthy of food. It was a mix of trying to lose weight, eating disorder, depression and my own self loathing.
Working with Liana's programs I could uncover, deep down I inherently felt soo unworthy. Not being the good daughter. Not being the perfect friend. Not being the perfect student.
Just failing in every area of my life. The more I tried the more I sunk in the marsh. There was no way out. It was suffocating I couldn't keep my head up. I used to hit myself and find new ways to self harm which were subtle that they don't alarm anyone but felt like enough punishment for my existence.
I felt sorry I was born, sorry for my parents that they had a child like me who just could never measure up to their expectations, felt sorry that people had to witness the awkward, clumsy, me.
I only ate when I was about to faint. Because I didn't want my fainting to be an inconvenience to anyone. I wanted to be invisible, and deep down I felt invisible too. An existence of weird paradox.
Liana, her presence, her work. Every conversation with her chipped away my self loathing bit by bit. Her powerful programs brought me back to life. To see myself as someone worthy. To see my body or soul is not a burden and a lifetime to prove my worthiness was not my baggage to carry anymore because I am always loved by the divine. No conditions. I don't need to earn the reason for my existence.
I tried for years trying not to die, but putting myself in situations that almost killed me. Even when I wanted to abandon myself. Liana's light held my hand and carried me through. Only presence. Only unconditional love. Something so foreign I couldn't wrap my head around.
No one believed in me like Liana does. No one stayed except Liana's love and teachings which led me back home to Jesus.
Liana does not save anyone but did unlock something in me that I could be a responsible parent for my inner children and for that I would always be eternally grateful to Liana 💖 In a unique way, her love rescues us from our own self loathing. I am still learning what love is, but love Liana.