Lacy Smith @mahealani.hauata
I’ve written different variations of this story over the past 6 months but have realized this will forever be an evolving list of gratitude. I wanted to express what my teacher, Liana Shanti, means to me, who she is, what she’s done for me and others.
She is more than a teacher, she is pure unconditional love in human form. She is empowerment, light, peace, and raw TRUTH. She has taught me that through connecting with the true Jesus and the Divine that I can find myself again.
She taught me I was not responsible for my pain and trauma but I was accountable for healing from it. She taught me that it was my God given right to live a life full of peace and joy and to accept nothing less than that for myself. From 19-36yrs old I spent my time drowning out pain.
I spent 17 years binge drinking. Making very dangerous choices. Then 9 years ago I met someone I trauma bonded with and was introduced to weed, MDMA, and psychedelics. I lost all boundaries.
Reckless behavior. Drinking till I didn’t remember. Smoking until I didn’t remember. Drinking and smoking to not think about the hangover and ignorant comments I made the night before. I hated myself. I suffered from severe anxiety, sleep paralysis, anger and rage.
My diet was terrible because I had already made irresponsible decisions so what difference did it make at that point. I was destroying my body inside out. I was destroying my soul from the inside out.
I was running and hiding from so much pain and trauma from my childhood. I had a malignant narcissistic mother who projected all her pain onto me and abused me in every sense. I had a father who let his ego run his life and mine and also sexually abused me. I was running and hiding from the sheer anger I had from having cancer at 19 and being unable to have children. I was enslaved to a victim mentality.
Ever since I was 3-4yr old I remember going to church and learning about Jesus and thinking “they have this wrong, that’s not how he is and that’s not who God is”. While I was raised Christian, religion never really made sense to me. And even through the worst times, Jesus has never left my side. I remember stumbling through dark streets in college, drunk and alone, praying Psalm 23:4. He is the reason for my survival but I was still so lost and disconnected. I wanted to be closer to him but didn’t know how.
Then I found Liana. Her teachings made it all click. It felt like being gone on a lifelong arduous journey and then waking through the front door of a home you've missed. She taught me that Jesus wasn’t going to save me but he would show me how to save myself. She reflected my own inner wisdom. Her guidance has led me to live a life full of joy, gratitude, and abundance. Her messages and programs guided me to a place of loving myself enough to honor myself. I became fully plant-based, stopped smoking weed, using drugs, and drinking alcohol. I ended an extremely toxic marriage with an abusive husband. I released toxic friendships and toxic family members. I am now fully connected to Jesus.
My life is proof that what she teaches is 100% the truth. The light that shines through her has eliminated darkness in every corner of my life. I am finally free and I love myself for the first time ever. I cherish myself, my body, and most importantly my soul. I regained my freedom and sovereignty. I stopped settling for abusive people. I created boundaries. I found self worth. I stopped listening to satans lies. In a world trying to tear you down, Liana builds you up. Thank you Liana for helping my soul course correct. Thank you for helping me remember who I am. You have been one of the most beautiful gifts in this lifetime. You are truly a legacy of love.